Saturday, August 21, 2010
HAPPY 2 YEARS & 8 MONTHS ANNI DARLING!.I'm so glad to have you being with me for the past 32 months simply LOVE.I'm looking forward to seeing you on sunday!I'll be strong, but am sure to have puffy eyes tmr.. TSK.Whole family will be going back msia tmr i'll be left alone home till evening whn my auntie come back for work. Maybe i shld go out myself or just rottt at home since cramps are KILLING ME.PMS SUCKS I SWEAR ITS DAMMM PAINFUL UNTIL YOU CAN CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND JUST PRACTICALLY CRY WHOLE DAY FML.
Not seeeing baby tmr makes it worst but at least im going to see him on sun hopefully.I'm so afraid because of me he cant rest well... i want him to hav enough rest but i also wanna seee himmm..AHHH HOW?.. i'm so selfish ): felt so baddd when he heard me cry just now i dint want to worry him i tried so hard to control but it just burst. I wonder what happen to me its like i can survive 14 days w/o seeeing him but why this time is sooo hard.. must be PMS. ewwwwwwwwww pls go awayyy...Must be strong and independant even more, cause next week 6days field camp = no contact for 6 days.
OMG, this is hard mannn but im sure i'll be able to handle it.. i just misssssssssss you so mucccccchhhhhhhhhh i wanna hug you so tight and just let me feeel ur warmth and heartbeat even if it just last for a min. It would really will meant the WORLD to me. Stop whinning you retard *hit self* oh mannn I really need to go to bed soon if not tmr i'll be a zombie tsk sick+cramps+bodyaches = BOMB. Im sure i wont have a good slp tonight, cramps are getting worse and coughing my lungs out. Soaking wet pillow,bloster and blankie dosent helps sorry elmo to have got you wet ._. WHY THE HELL AM I SO WEAK?? CRYING UR HEARTS OUT WONT SOLVE ANYTHING YOU STUPID GIRL. *slaps self* okay enough complains. Goodnight all!. Baby boy, i really missssss you soooooooooooooo muchhhhhhhhh.
Happy Anni to us again!.I LOVE YOU LOADS!.
